Maybe I might try (sex)!!!

What do you think are the chances?

VERY outside would be my answer. But I'll give it a go anyway. You know, that mythical concept that sex leads to pregnancy. As I just have to sit around waiting until January for my next cycle, I might as well. You never know, we might even enjoy it!

All of you who are teachers out there will know the intensity of the last few weeks of the school year. I have been frantically marking exams, preparing results, writing reports, checking reports, organising classes for next year, writing presentations, conducting professional development, writing policies, creating handbooks etc etc etc ...

So my absence this last week has been due to time of year rather than emotional distress. Not that I haven't been upset about Bob. I really did think that this one might work. But now that it hasn't, I haven't really had too much time to dwell on it. Being busy sometimes is a good thing.

Dr Challenge is happy with my plan. If my cycle works on time, I will be likely to have egg pick up at the end of January. I guess if it wasn't Christmas I'd be pushing to jump on another cycle again, but with so much to distract me during this time, the wait will be bearable (I say that now, of course, ask me again on the 2nd January!).

And I decided, I need something else to look forward to next year than a baby. I've been putting everything on hold each year, waiting for the 'big thing' that I was sure was going to happen. Waiting ... waiting ... waiting for the baby that's never arrived. And so I end each year with disappointment. By Christmas, I have told myself. Next Christmas, I'll be pregnant.

I've been starting to dread Christmas and the arrival of yet another failed year.

And I know it won't replace anything, but I have booked us a trip to China in April. I have always wanted to visit China, and I teach a unit on China with my Yr 7 class, so now, I'm excited. I have something to look forward to - something I can guarantee will actually happen. I have paid my money, bought my tickets and now, I can go. It will work, unlike the awful uncertainty we face with every cycle we pay for in this game. We don't get our money back if it's broken.

In the meantime, back to reports. I am sorry I haven't been visiting or commenting at your places - but I really just have to survive work at the moment - and then I have a big reward of 6 weeks holiday at the end of it!! I hope to be able to get to some visiting over the weekend ... and I hope all of your stories have been going well right now. If not, I really do feel for you.

Take care.