To self-medicate or not ...?

Well, I'm still feeling no different ... yesterday I kind of thought I was, but today, really nothing more than tired. I had a shocking sleep - I woke up about 10 times - so tired isn't a very surprising state of affairs. Yesterday, my boobs felt slightly bigger, perhaps a little tender, and a 'tight' feeling low down in my abdomen. Although I think I was just trying to convince myself as today the only reason my boobs are sore is because I've been squeezing them so much!!

AB and I spent all day in the garden. We removed a really ugly fence that separates our backyard from the bushland next door and installed some lattice which, while not necessarily more beautiful, allows us to see through to the park and will eventually be covered with the jasmine I have planted along the base. I went to the garden centre and bought loads of gorgeous plants and created a garden along the fence which should look great by the time summer arrives in a few months. My colour scheme is purple, various shades of pink, red and white. This is the 'before' photo, by the way ... I'll post an 'after' when it's looking beautiful.

But now I'm worried I've overdone it in the 'no heavy lifting' and 'taking it easy' departments. It was just such a beautiful winter day I had to get outside and do something. I have been a little bored with so much couch dwelling.

Could I really ruin everything with a day in the garden? I didn't lift anything too heavy - just a few pots and some digging. But I didn't stop all day.

It's so easy to be paranoid.

But, here's the real problem for today ...

Tomorrow, I am due to have the last 2 squirts of Crinone. I have in my possession, however, enough to keep going until next Sunday. They gave me 2 boxes of 15 but have given me instructions to only use them for 9 days. Now, I'm kind of confused about this. Why would they want me to stop? Isn't the purpose of this to provide for me what my body has been unable to produce successfully on it's own? Doesn't my embryo still need it after tomorrow (that's assuming, of course, it's still there)? I hear of so many of you continuing with progesterone until the pregnancy is well and truly established. Is there a valid reason to stop now?

So, my question is, should I keep using it, even though I am not really meant to? I want to give this as much chance as it could have ... could this possibly help? Could it possibly hurt?

It's like a security blanket that I'm not quite ready to give up yet. And I've got the choice this cycle. I've got the drugs!!!!

I could email Dr Challenge and ask him ... but I might not like his answer. And they would know about it with the blood test on Friday if I went alone with my self-medication. Although after Friday, I'll have an answer.

But really, what harm could it do?

Thoughts, anyone ...