Thursday, August 03, 2006

The Call ... and then a rant

I have just received The Call. When the phone rang my heart jumped into my throat, beating insanely and threatening to choke me. I could barely croak 'hello'.

Saint Anne first prepared me with the fact that 3 of the eggs weren't actually mature.
Right, I thought, down to 7.
But the good news, she said, is that 5 of those have fertilised.


The ratio is good - great even - a shame there weren't more of them. But 5 is 5 and I am hoping, wishing and praying for them to grow in their warm, dark dish.

Please kids, your father and I really want to meet you. We have been waiting so long for you. We love you.

I am right now also sending my uterus cosy thoughts. Make like a duvet, enrich yourself with warmth, be ready .. you know, that kind of stuff .. I feel like a bit of a dill about it at times but I can easily become a sentimental, superstitious mess right now. I think it's only temporary.

Scientist Misty will call me on Saturday with updated report. Last time, I didn't know what I was waiting for. I was kind of happily naive in my oblivion. Now, I know how much is riding on it. That some might drop off along the way. That Monday is far away in the life of a tiny embryo. That all I need is one. That what I want is 5.

Monday seems a long way to me too.

And now, for my rant. As is my privilege on a post-procedure, couch-dwelling day, I get myself a little stash of the latest trashy weeklies. I don't read them at any other time - mostly because they shit me to tears - but I bought some on Tuesday afternoon in preparation for today.

The first article in one of them is about Princess Mary (you know, Aussie girl marries Danish prince, set to become Queen, friend of AB's cousin). Anyway, the focus of this article is her apparent infertility. What the ...?!! It seems that she has been trying now for THREE WHOLE MONTHS and has not yet become pregnant.

The tragedy!

Of course, the article emphasises that she just needs to 'relax' because she is so 'stressed' (I wish I had so much stress - and a wardrobe to match). Then it will just happen (a bit like a bus, really!).
She is even quoted as saying she "needs a miracle".

What she needs is a fucking reality check!!! Her child is only 9 months old and she fell pregnant first time with him. If she thinks she has reached 'crisis point' now, pity her if she actually does suffer from REAL infertility.

But with an unlimited budget and the luxury of never needing to work, I'm sure her experiences would be VERY different to any of ours if she ever had to go down that path. She has been flying to London to consult with fertility specialists because her THREE MONTHS of hope have started to fade.

Try YEARS honey, then you'll actually know what it's all about. Then you'll see that Hope packs her bags, gives you the bird and hauls her arse out of your life!!

Sorry .. my rant got a bit carried away there. I actually don't mind her usually. I think she is pretty down to earth and AB's cousin says she is a lovely person. But infertile, with a naturally conceived 9 month old?

I think not!


At 11:56 am, Anonymous Paige said...

Stella - I've got my fingers crossed for your 5 embies - divide and grow.

As to miss 3 months - does she have an email? we could bombard her with how long infertiles have been trying - 7 years for me. Geesh!

At 12:02 pm, Blogger Mary Ellen and Steve said...

I hope that your 5 little embryos grow and divide. Hugs to you.

At 1:34 pm, Blogger Zee said...

Hi Stella! Congrats on the Fabulous Five! I'm hoping they all keep growing and dividing and getting more and more fabulous. (Sending lots of divide and grow vibes from the other side of the world!)

Now, about Princess Mary: UGH! I am SO with you there. I've been brokenhearted over that girl for YEARS. (See, now you got ME started!) Why? Well, if you look at things from a certain angle (or if you're just a really sad person, like I am) there are a few parallels between her life and mine--only her stuff has always managed to be, like, a million times easier! And so she tends to get up my nose in a big way. (I think I feel a really pathetic and regrettable post brewing...)

Anyway, I'll shut up now. Just know that I'm sending good thoughts to you and your embies, and a big "MMM. YEAH. WHATEVER." to the Princess.

At 3:19 pm, Blogger Vee said...

Well done on the 5 !

I hate those trashy mags for that reason gggrrr.

Still wishing on that star.

At 3:31 pm, Blogger katty said...

Very good luck with the five.....

At 6:42 pm, Blogger Thalia said...

Well i was delighted to hear about your 5, but very cross now re princess mary. What a wuss. How much do you think is the paper blowing it out of proportion? Bastard media, can't get anything right!

Keep on breathing, sweetie, you've got 5 good ones there. Will you definitely go to blast?

At 8:04 pm, Blogger Meg said...

Thank God I missed that magazine - I am so out of the celebrity loop right now (this might be good).

Hoping all five grow good and proper, Stell, and that your week off heads in the direction of being relaxing (at least makes a difference, anyway!)

At 10:09 pm, Blogger Emmie said...

Hi! I'm so glad to hear about your 5. I'm sending them and you positive thoughts! I like how you tell your uterus to make like a duvet. Must remember that!

As far as the Princess... Wow. And I thought the U.S. tabloids were annoying with all their "Does she have a bump!?" articles about celebs. They don't seem to address IF over here. I guess poor Princess would really have no meaning in life if she couldn't produce heirs, but I can't believe she already has one and is acting this way.

At 11:08 pm, Blogger serenity said...

Hoping those 5 continue to grow and divide...

And I echo zee's comment about the princess - "Um. Yeah. WHATEVER."

Wishing for very good things for you!!!!!!!

At 1:22 am, Blogger Hopeful Mother said...

Hoping for really good things with your embies... and your cushy uterus.

Monday will be here before you know it!

At 10:15 am, Blogger GZ said...

Good luck with your five.

OMG, three whole months...Maybe we should all start mailing her monetary donations. Or eggs, even. Poor, poor princess.

At 5:54 pm, Anonymous Meri-ann said...

I was so going to rant about that same article! My Mum bought the magazine over and I nearly threw up in my mouth when I read that...

Anyway, great news about the 5! Good luck for Monday, thinking of you....

At 6:06 pm, Blogger VanillaDreams said...

Stella, Congrats on the 5! That sounds good -- I hope they keep growing and developing into fabulous embryos.

Do you know what day you will transfer on?

I like your idea of "sending cosy thoughts to the uterus." Hmm, I must do the same for mine, I think! I have the "emergency" lining check ultrasound in the morning, and my lining better be nice and duvet-like, otherwise I am looking at postponement (and ruin-ment) of my flight and hotel plans!

Anyway, I can't even comment on that article you mentioned -- that sort of thing just pisses me off too much right now and I can't handle it! I was in the grocery store yesterday and walked past a magazine with a PREGNANT and NAKED britney spears on the cover and I also threw up right there!! UGH! What are magazine editors thinking?!?!!? I am trying to shop for FOOD here, and seeing a pregnant and naked britney makes me lose all appetite!!!

There. I guess that is my little rant....sorry about that! LOL

Again, congrats on those 5 embryos, and I hope they continue to do really well!

Look forward to more updates...

All the best,

At 11:21 am, Blogger Bea said...

I am really glad I didn't read that article in the tea room the other day now.



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